Journal Entry: Sun Dec 2, 2012, 6:27 PM
I need this, I need to vent a little. I'm going to say so many things without an order and how I feel, even if my feelings and thoughts are stupid I'm going to, so if you don't care then don't read it, thank you.
I feel like my first and main OC, Eternity, is dying. I know I know, she's already dead and all, but I don't know I just feel like I don't know what to do with her, this page seems to be "popular" for the pageviews and watchers in the short time it's alive, and don't misunderstand me because I really don't think that I'm popular, I just feel like no matter how many favorites I have in my stuff, it doesn't matter, cause I barely have nice comments or something, or well, it's just not what I expect. Also, she doesn't have many friends, the only reason I keep her at the moment are her lover and daughter.
I'm not going to lie, I love long RPs. I love them, they keep me interested in what's going to happen and all, and they keep me happy, somehow. And I'm not having them.
I don't know what to do with my other OCs, I'm just afraid that people reject them or ignore them if I start something.
I feel so lonely here, I wish I had a better comunication with the admins that I have contact with, maybe it's my fault I don't know, I don't know if I annoy them or something or if they're busy, it seems like everybody is busy but I don't blame them cause everybody need to do other and important stuff, I know. But still, just a little time would be... nice.
I want to end the year so hard... I can break free from school in December 20, yes it's not too far away... but it seems. I'm sucking in my final exams, yes, and I'm worried. Still I do nothing, because how I'm going to learn in just one day what I didn't in all the year? pftt... I hope to pass and leave the school to go home and do whatever I like at the time I want.
I hate to be from Latin America and almost the all of you being from USA, cause I have to stay late to talk to you. I don't hate you, I just hate the time, the damned time...
I don't like being like this.
I don't know what I need, maybe just what's missing for me.
Also, if you're reading this and you're sick, I wish you get well soon, take care and be happy, okay? I know being sick sucks, and I don't wish bad things to anyone, so, all my best wishes for you~
That's all I think...
Sorry if I'm not so communicative. ))
Listening to: the rocks, okay okay, songs :l
Watching: my screen.