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OOC: Ugh..

Journal Entry: Sun Dec 2, 2012, 6:27 PM
I need this, I need to vent a little. I'm going to say so many things without an order and how I feel, even if my feelings and thoughts are stupid I'm going to, so if you don't care then don't read it, thank you.

I feel like my first and main OC, Eternity, is dying. I know I know, she's already dead and all, but I don't know I just feel like I don't know what to do with her, this page seems to be "popular" for the pageviews and watchers in the short time it's alive, and don't misunderstand me because I really don't think that I'm popular, I just feel like no matter how many favorites I have in my stuff, it doesn't matter, cause I barely have nice comments or something, or well, it's just not what I expect. Also, she doesn't have many friends, the only reason I keep her at the moment are her lover and daughter.

I'm not going to lie, I love long RPs. I love them, they keep me interested in what's going to happen and all, and they keep me happy, somehow. And I'm not having them.

I don't know what to do with my other OCs, I'm just afraid that people reject them or ignore them if I start something.

I feel so lonely here, I wish I had a better comunication with the admins that I have contact with, maybe it's my fault I don't know, I don't know if I annoy them or something or if they're busy, it seems like everybody is busy but I don't blame them cause everybody need to do other and important stuff, I know. But still, just a little time would be... nice.

I want to end the year so hard... I can break free from school in December 20, yes it's not too far away... but it seems. I'm sucking in my final exams, yes, and I'm worried. Still I do nothing, because how I'm going to learn in just one day what I didn't in all the year? pftt... I hope to pass and leave the school to go home and do whatever I like at the time I want.

I hate to be from Latin America and almost the all of you being from USA, cause I have to stay late to talk to you. I don't hate you, I just hate the time, the damned time...

I don't like being like this.
I don't know what I need, maybe just what's missing for me.

Also, if you're reading this and you're sick, I wish you get well soon, take care and be happy, okay? I know being sick sucks, and I don't wish bad things to anyone, so, all my best wishes for you~

That's all I think...
Sorry if I'm not so communicative. ))

  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: the rocks, okay okay, songs :l
  • Watching: my screen.
  • Eating: chocolate
  • Drinking: milk
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:iconvanilla-villa-shoppe:
awww I'm sorry^^; To be honest I thought you were busy and didn't want to bother you- I'll be more on top of things from now onUuUand bother you more.)
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MaryLittleRose Dec 3, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm not busy really, just kinda stressed even if it's about nothing... hehe UvU" bother meeeei, all that you want, cause I feel so dead. so dead. and I'm sorry for not replying the notes.. ;-; we can start another want if you wish! ))
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:iconvanilla-villa-shoppe:
sure want me to send one?)
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MaryLittleRose Dec 3, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That would be nice now uvu ))
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:iconm-t0wn:
Its not your fault hun, Im just horrible with all my contacts!
I'm sorry I dont message you as much as I use to..; H ; Ive been pretty busy over the time, But you know I love RPing with you..especially with Monique ;u;
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MaryLittleRose Dec 3, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Aw baby, I miss to talk and RP with you, really ;n; but if you're busy, then it's okay I think... I mean, I just hope you have your stuff in order soon so we can do what we used to and all the happiness begin<3 ))
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:iconm-t0wn:
(( Are you gonna be on skype again soon? ; 3 ; I never seen you on )
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Skyroses99 Dec 2, 2012  Student General Artist
i know just how you feel. i've been going through somethings similar, and i really just want the year to be over so i can start new. im sure everyone feels how you do one time or another, you're not alone.*pat*
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KireiAoi Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I get that way too. :<

Most of my internet friends are always busy, and I always feel like I'm last on their list in terms of 'most-importantness'. There are days where it gets pretty depressing because I don't have very many friends outside of the internet.
Sometimes, instead of getting a chance to be upset about it, Ill just message someone, anyone really, just to say hi, or ask if they want to roleplay. It may take them a while to reply, but at least you know they might reply, right?

I hope you figure something out, I hate to see people upset, even if it's just a little bit.

(And also, if I fave something of yours, what I'm saying is "This is really awesome! I like it a lot!". Im a guilty fave and runner. ;A; )
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MaryLittleRose Dec 3, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Let me.. like... just love you so much, okay? cause all that you said is exactly how I feel, totally, and it's what I do and all asdafsdg let me love you<3 I'm not upset, just... kinda down. ))
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